[ she does already notice that Ren's nightly dreamscape is a relatively quiet place, all things considered; there are his thoughts and memories she visits, as well as Leader Snoke's lurking at the peripheries — cold, sharp and piercing, their content rendered purposefully vague and obfuscated from her even as she can tell their origin — but she doesn't ever see or feel the presence of either of his parents, or uncle, or others that she would expect. no close friends, no trusted camaraderies...no lovers.
it's about as lonely a place as her own dreams are. and as much as a part of herself is loathe to admit it, aloud or in her own thoughts, there is something strangely profound in the realization of it; I am here, where no one else has been. ]
I would know it, yes. [ the barb stings a little more smartly than it should; she's had a hard, lonely life, she's never claimed otherwise, and she's accepted it. Ren throwing it in her face like this shouldn't affect her, but it does, and especially because her solitude wasn't thrust upon her by her choice. ] But even so, I still embraced companionship when it was dropped unexpectedly into my lap.
[ ...Finn. as far as embracing it, she'd have to admit that it wasn't instantaneous — she'd railed at him for having the audacity to hold her hand — but despite all of her misgivings about trusting someone, something instilled in her from hardened years on Jakku, Finn had wormed his way in. ]
What is that supposed to mean, exactly, 'soon enough'? If there's more in your head, I don't want it. It's already depressing enough.
these two just love coming back to punch the other in the feels
it's about as lonely a place as her own dreams are. and as much as a part of herself is loathe to admit it, aloud or in her own thoughts, there is something strangely profound in the realization of it; I am here, where no one else has been. ]
I would know it, yes. [ the barb stings a little more smartly than it should; she's had a hard, lonely life, she's never claimed otherwise, and she's accepted it. Ren throwing it in her face like this shouldn't affect her, but it does, and especially because her solitude wasn't thrust upon her by her choice. ] But even so, I still embraced companionship when it was dropped unexpectedly into my lap.
[ ...Finn. as far as embracing it, she'd have to admit that it wasn't instantaneous — she'd railed at him for having the audacity to hold her hand — but despite all of her misgivings about trusting someone, something instilled in her from hardened years on Jakku, Finn had wormed his way in. ]
What is that supposed to mean, exactly, 'soon enough'? If there's more in your head, I don't want it. It's already depressing enough.